i do not know who i am.
it sounds crazy, right? to not know who you are. who am i? no, really, who am i?
call me Mislay. this is not my true name, yes, but does it matter? nothing matters.
and, sure, you could argue that everyone has a personality and that i'm just making this all up for pity on the internet, but here's a thought. if i do not have a personality that i or people around me can recognise, am i truly human? or am i just a mistake, an anomaly?
the latter could be more accurate.
nevertheless - life has no meaning, i don't have a purpose on this God-forsaken planet; we all live in a simulation, and we're all programmed to go to school, work for the majority of our lives, and die. after death, will it really matter what you've accomplished in life? everyone just forgets that you've existed if you're not a public figure, so why even bother?
without a real purpose on this planet, I don't see a point in going on - not as in, "I want to die because I have nothing to live for," but rather, "I simply do not wish to exist if all I do is the same thing every day."
For now, I'll tell you what i know.
i have an interest in coding and computers. it's kind of interesting how i have complete control over how you see me. i can tell you as much or as little about myself as i want, and you will still not know the real "me". if you really think about it, it's almost godlike in a way. there are things you don't know about me, and will never know about me, and that's a good thing. there are some things about me that you don't need to know.
i am in no way a nice person, no matter how much i come off as one. kindness is a lie. all kindness in the world is fabricated. we, as what we know as "humans", are all selfish creatures and we only think of ourselves. we have no regard for others, they are all just there to add spice to our simulation. NPCs, if you will.
i recognise that you may not like me. i do not care. i'm allowed to express myself on my domain, and i'm not here to cater to you or what you want to see. besides, what you think of me or my site is none of my business. i do not expect you to like anything i put on my site.
